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SuicideWhen life gets tough,
You get your knife.
When life just sucks,
You take your life.

When you have problems,
When no one cares.
The scars on your arms.
All the stares.

The blade of the knife
Held up to your wrist.
The blood leaking out.
Your hand in a fist.

There is no pain.
You do not start.
Nothing compares
To the pain in your heart.

If you're in the mood
You might get artistic.
Carve a morbid message
"I am sadistic."

"I hate"
"Life sucks"
"Screw the world"

Most don't understand
What it's like to suffer.
"There are people in the world worse off than you."

Do you care?
Oh no.
You're apathetic.

Emotionless.
Indiff

Suicide Note

Sometimes as I'm sitting here
And the tears run unchecked down my face
and my thoughts run through, my head is racing
and the things I think about ring too true

And sometimes as I'm watching stars
Twinkle in the sky I wonder why
I'm still sitting here, why I'm still alive

Wouldn't it be somethin' else to die
Would anyone care enough to cry
Am I even brave enough to try
and I just sit here thinking to myself

And that razor is so inviting
and that ledge is so warm
I can see myself happy and suning
on the 'night's plutonian shore'

Don't think there's somethin' wrong with me!
Don't tell me I need help
You don't understand me
You

SuicideIm sorry
I didnt want to leave you all
But i cant handle this anymore
My life sucks
I cant handle it
Its taking me over
The thoughts in my head
They kill me inside
But i dont want to confine it anymore
I want to release these thoughts
And let them be real
Dont forget its all your fault
Never forget that
I hate you all
There is one
And they know who they are
I love them
Its not their fault
But i have to do this
Things in my life have been building up lately
Abd i just hate myself too much to let myself live
So this is my note
To say goodbye to eveyone who thought i loved/liked them
so goodbye
good luck in life
i will

A Pretty Girls Suicide

A Pretty Girl's Suicide

All the voices say
She has such a pretty smile
One that lasts for days
Like it was plastered on her face

All the voices say
She wears such pretty clothes
The colors that just stand out in a crowd
Like she was a butterfly

All the voices say
She has such pretty eyes
A mixture of green and blue
Like where the ocean meats the sky

All the voices say
She has such pretty hair
It would shimmer in the breeze
Like dew on grass

All the voices say
She was such a pretty girl
A girl who would make boys mouths water
Like a freshly baked apple pie

But pretty is as pretty does
Every time she glimpsed a mirror
It

SuicideThere once was a girl who hated the world because of the pain within. On the outside she appeared just fine. But her sanity was wearing thin. Pain and hate and guilt were hidden deep inside her mind. But it grew and increasingly she broke down from time to time. No one knew of her burdens since she hid them very well. No one would've ever guessed that soon she'd say her last farewell. Her family expected too much from her and spoke in an indifferent and hypocritical way. She felt worthless and useless and stupid and ashamed. It was the same cycle every day. Her friends provided little comfort for they were all rather opinionated. T

Suicide

I wish you happiness
As I point the gun at my head
As I tighten my finger over the trigger

I wish you love
As I shed my last tears
As I think my last thoughts

I wish you peace
As I feel my heart beat quicken
As I feel the chaos still around me

I wish you hope
As I see my dreams shatter
As I feel the despair of my heart

I wish you life
As I give in to my pain
As I greet death

SuicideSuicide

Note world, my time.
And I have to leave
because, I can't take anymore pain.
I see my path was meant to be cruel,
but my soul has suffered the abuse,
and my quota is limited.
Now that my life is closing
I take death as a release,
so release me.
I cannot fear any longer
I have conformed into fear's rough mold
and now that I am valid,
so is my end.
Fear will guide me to my destiny.

-Jeremy Hebert

The SuicideI saw your pain,
and yet I did not try to fix it.

I saw the tears,
and yet I could not dry them.

You talked of your troubles,
and yet I gave no time to listen.

I feel as though I could have saved you, now.
I made no effort at all.
I feel as though I added to your anguish.
I wanted to help, but I didn't know what to do.

I cannot imagine the pain you must have been in,
forgive me for not seeing.

Oh, God, I don't know why I couldn't see!

Blinded by my own petty distractions and excuses
Too busy to save you...

I am so sorry, Dan,
And I pray that you're in heaven as I pray for forgiveness.

Please know that I cried for you once i

Suicide GirlThere once was a girl,
who didn't love life.
she hated it so much,
slit her wrists with a knife.

people saw it coming.
she always seemed depressed.
hardly ever smiled,
as her life was one big mess.

she tried to keep secret,
about all the pain she had.
for if it came out,
it would scare her mom and dad.

the girl had known,
it was time to let go,
as she was waiting,
on deaths row.

now she is dead,
as you can see.
no more suffering,
because she is free.

Suicide NoteDear friend, dear family, dear all whom I hate.
This is my chance... My time to escape...
My time to shine, I've just crossed the line.
I swallowed some pills and am slowly dying.

I've taken my life, with no kind of regret.
I came to realize, my life isn't shit.
Reality hates me, fantasy ignores me.
But this shiny little knife, all but adores me.

I cut my wrists, my blood falling into mists.
The vein slowly hisses, as I look into abysses.
I draw the steel, from is red warm womb.
Trail the blood on this note, spelling out "Doom".

I cry acid tears, they burn out my eyes.
They take the sights away from this world I despise.
I still

Suicide my love.

Just slit your wrists and end it now
Don't have to feel anything anymore
No more pain, no more rejections,
No more illness, no more injections.
No more torment, no more fear
Nothing more, because you're not here

Not here to enjoy happiness..
Not here to feel love.
Instead lying on the floor
staring at the ceiling above
A crimson river of pain
Flowing from your veins

Left in your last thought
Of how you never gave yourself a chance
And in your last breath
You end this romance

SuicideMom I love you
Don't blame it on yourself
Dad forgive me
I couldn't ask for help
Sis don't hate me
For leaving you alone
Take my picture
Off the table by the phone

It never belonged there anyway

This happy family was broken
Long before I left it anyway
I don't expect you to understand
Just why it was that I couldn't stay

I know you can't hear me
But I'm writing this for you
It is my last punk song
Telling you my life is through
It's okay to hate me
Just don't miss me when I'm gone
Cuz I don't deserve it
When I have done so much wrong

I never belonged here anyway

This happy family was broken
Long before I left it anyway

A Note.

Have you ever experienced a pain that seemed to reach deep within your soul?
So deep that no one can touch it?
That no medication can cure it?

It feels like there's a void in your life that can't be filled.
And with each passing day your soul cries out in misery,
as it slowly dies in a dark pool of inner demons,
that are gradually coming out as the victors to this cruel game,
known as life.

I'm fighting.

But I don't know how long I can keep pushing away my demons,
as my desire to be completely consumed by them - to end it all -
grows with each day I keep to myself.

The pain, the misery, the depression,
haunts me,
greeting me at

SuicideI'm sorry i've got to do this
I can't take anymmore.
I loved you, and always will,
please don't forget me,
cos i'll never forget you.
I hope to see you later on
when your time to pass has come.
thankyou for helping me
I'm sorry it didnt work out better,
you all tried your best
please dont blame your selves.
thats not what I want,
I want you all to be happy,
go on with your lives.
do it for me cos I couldnt do it,
not even for myself.
I tried my best to be happy and free
but at the end of the day,
thats just not me.

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So crimson.
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Suicide Note

by ~Yllek, Mar 12, 2005, 10:10:34 AM
Literature / Poetry / Transgressive / Traditional Fixed Forms

To my Mother and my Father,
Both of whom where never there.
Disowned me when I turned sixteen,
Abandoned without care.
And so for you I leave behind
A black world full of hate
For you to twist and torment in -
All for you is desolate.
To my Brother or my Sister,
Aunt, Uncle and Cousin too,
You simply just ignored me,
Said "There's nothing we can do".
You sat upon the sidelines,
And you all just stared on in;
Watched me spiral downward;
Get swallowed up in Sin.
To my 'friends', you User Bastards,
Who were there to bleed me dry!
I was there when I was needed,
When you were needed, you'd just fly!
To you I give my nothing,
'Cos it's just not good enough!
What else can you take from me?
I'm six foot down, I've no more stuff.
I now write to my girlfriend,
The only one to care.
You watched me like a shadow,
When you were needed, you were there.
My sole and perfect lover,
The one who took my breath,
For you I give eternity,
You join me now in death.

Suicide Noteby ~Yllek

Literature / Poetry / Transgressive / Traditional Fixed Forms

Something I've been contemplating for a long time...
The song that is, not suicide. I'm perfectly happy!

It was written during the breaks in Synthesis VI.

~southparksweetie2 Jul 21, 2010

This acully almost made me cry... You are a wonderful writer, never stop.

~Darkwolfgirl Jan 31, 2010 Hobbyist General Artist

So awesome, it's epic.

~Loveless2624 Jan 22, 2009 Student Photographer

Brilliant

~iamem Aug 23, 2007 Professional Filmographer

i can almost feel the emotions behind.. nicely written..

~Yllek Sep 12, 2007 Writer

Thanks ^_^
It feels weird looking back at all this now... Wish I could still write like that...

~iamem Sep 16, 2007 Professional Filmographer

yea, i've noticed its a long while ago, but it really caught my attention..

i'm sure you still can, creativity doesn't just vanish.. talents always remain somewhere within..

~Yllek Sep 17, 2007 Writer

Hmm, I dunno...
I'd say it can vanish... At least, it seems to here...

Or at least taken a leaf out of Energy's book and just converted itself into a new, as of yet undiscovered, form? I'd prefer that to losing it completely; but I don't hold my breath.

~Jepuisadore17 Dec 10, 2012

Sometimes remembering the feelings that you felt when writing it, and then taking hold of feelings in that way again, lets you write like you used to.
The talent isn't gone, the talent is either not used or used in different ways, like you said

~SugaRandDeatH Mar 19, 2005

wow!!! i`m shocked!!1 this is sooo good!!!

(looks like my suicide note...somehow...but mine is in romanian...so...a bit difficult to understand

)

~Yllek Mar 20, 2005 Writer

Thank you!
Romanian? Such a sweet country, the origins of the vampire legends, and such a beautifully dark language.

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